A friend of a friend's father died yesterday. Like mine, he left this world without warning, no goodbyes. It was a sudden death. I didn't even know him but I'm familiar with the pain that his daughters must be feeling. I didn't even know him but I can't help the tears from falling nor the memories from flooding in.
I thought I was over it. I thought I've moved on. But this news took me back to 5 years ago, when I lost my dad. I didn't really feel any pain then, not even the loss. I was just numbed and lost and broken. Then pain came creeping in and I wake up at night with tears on my pillow. Then the loss. Of all that I've felt, the feeling that you know you'll never have him back is the worst.
Death of a loved one must be the worst experience one will have. Wounds will heal. Broken hearts can mend and love again. But when one dies, you lose them forever. And even their memories will always invoke some remembered pain.
1 comment:
hmmm i just remembered a line from my favorite book nence. hmmmm about love. but im not going to quote it because it does not really fit the context.
i know it's sad. but i never really believed that when one dies, you lose em forever.. it probably just depends on how one looks at it. ^^ but that's what i believe.
and nostalgia is indeed some form of pain. but i pray that for you, and for all those who have lost their loved ones, the happiness that comes from memories remembered won't be overshadowed by it.
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