In Recollection

I've been reading through my old blogs and realized it's been almost 3 yrs. since I've been in a relationship. I broke up with Ian on August of 2006!! How could I not remember that?
I've last been in Bantayan on April of 2007? Where was I last year?
So that means I've been going out with my best friend for more than 2 yrs. now? How did that happen?

The past 3 years went by so fast, it's all a blur
I remember that night when I broke up with Ian, it was Andy who called to comfort me.
When I was bored, Andy would watch a movie with me
He was just one text away when I was alone and we'd hang out.
Somehow I got more bored and more alone and before I know it, we've been spending a lot of time together
He's been my constant companion in everything and everywhere! Moving Bhaus.. Boracay.. Camiguin.. Vday.. Sinulog.. Christmas.. New Year.. Bdays..

People ask me if it's us and I always say "No"
I often laugh and wonder how they could come up with that since we've always been close in college. For the record, he never asked.
He said he loves me and I love him.
I love being with him. It's comfortable and I have fun.
But sometimes, when Im being honest to myself, I get to ask if what we're doing is right.
I know that he's more my bestfriend than my boyfriend, so does this mean that Im settling?
Does that make me a bad person?
We never talked about it but he doesn't seem to have any complaints.
Are we still on the same stand? And just where are we really?

If tomorrow he goes out and gets a girlfriend, I know I'll be ok with it.
What if she takes up all of his time and leave none for me? Will I really be ok if I lose him?
And what if I get a boyfriend first? Will he be ok with it?
What will I do if he's not?

All arguments I put upon myself somehow always end up on a moot point.
I guess I'll cross the bridge when I get there.
Anyway, we're not always agreeable.
Maybe it won't even have to come to this and we'll just grow apart.
Hahay, the things you blog about when you have so much time to waste.. =)