XoXo

I've been feeling rather melancholic lately. And in the midst of my melancholy you always come up in mind. I don't know why and I do not wish to know because you've been a chapter in my life I've closed years ago. But with the return of our old friend forgotten feelings come creeping in. A ghost emotion of something undead. Maybe it was with your troubled eyes as you shared to me about the love you've lost or of the love offered to you that you cannot return but you intend to keep.

These things do not concern me, I know. But somewhere in your tale you mentioned me, I'm sure. I was that girl who got you over your first love and made you move on to your great love. You thought yourself in love with me at first but circumstances changed. I was with someone else before you got to declaring and you moved to someone else before I can tell you myself.

It's been years since I've convinced myself I'm over you. But I can't explain it. Whenever our group gets together I always find myself drawn to you. No one knows because I never told, but it's you I've always wanted. I would never get to tell you this and you'll never know so I'll put it in writing... "Pat, for what it's worth, I think I've always been in love with you."