Too Much

Lately a lot has been happenning to me and my friends. I've heard all about Midlife Crisis and that's probably what we're having right now but this can't be IT. I mean we're just 23 and personally I don't think we are old enough to make 'mature' decisions about whatever we are going through.

Like the fact that I'm in need of a career change. I know that. Everyone keeps pushing me to take one but thing is, I don't know which way to start. So I'm planning to take lessons. Go back to school.. figure it all out.

Then my mom. I know it sounds mean and ungrateful but I'm just tired. Tired of the whinning and the unending problems and complaints. I always have my brothers and sisters to back me up though and I love them for that but in the end of the day, when I'm all alone in my room, I just want to give up. But I can't.. so I won't.

And then comes the love life. I honestly don't know how to deal with it or if I want to. I liked this guy before and now we're getting close (ie. hang-out and all) and people are thinking that he's making a move on me which should be a good thing right? Wrong... coz right now, I'm not sure if I like him in that way anymore.
Then comes another guy... We've been hanging out a lot lately too and everyone is thinking that there's something going on. I don't know what to think.. I myself don't know what's going on. Nothing was said but everything certainly aren't the way they were. But I'm not sure I want to take it to the next level. I can't take the complication.

Everything is so unstable... I'm just too confused or I'm confusing me.